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Some time ago I posted about Dean maybe being asexual/ A lot of this is the stuff I meant. Sounds like the poster doesn't mean it as a canon interpretation but as headcanon (or something else awesome), though IMO it can definitely be canon, or - I mean, the show will obviously never officially do that, but it's canon compliant IMO.
Either way, it's great to read someone else who sees that as possible, and also paints such a lovely picture :) :)

http://zuckergussprinzessin.tumblr.com/post/111099050931
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Title: To the Pain
Pairing: Undertones of Dean/Sam, Dean/Cas, Sam/Cas
Rating: Gen
Spoilers: vague, for 10x02
Summary: 'Skip to the end'.


So treasure your love... )


ETA: Have I read the perspective thing somewhere? Let me know if I did, please. I'm so paranoid about these things, but it doesn't mean I haven't :)
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Season 5

Swan Song
I probably can't express how much Swan Song touches me.
There is nothing like it.
It made me cry time and again, just looking at the transcript for a second to check for what exactly they said, that sort of thing.

I can't express it.

Bobby and Dean
First time around, I didn't get how far gone Dean had gotten.
Didn't really follow how desperate and hopeless...
A few days ago I rewatched a few of the later episodes. Rewatching still keeps giving me new things, perspectives, concepts.

In one of the earlier episodes of season 5, Bobby is willing to bet his life away to bet to regain some worth . This sort of devaluation of himself - I hadn't realized it - I thought of it as a plot device, and not as something Bobby was going through. And giving up his soul for a while to Crowley... When Dean was going to say yes, Bobby told him that Bobby wanted to shoot himself every single day, and every day didn't, because he'd promised Dean. They influence each other and echpo each other in such a deep way ...

Dean
But Dean. Honestly, I so get how come he was going to say yes. It kinda amazes me that he didn't, earlier - just out of stubbornness, insisting on resisting coercion, being contrary cause he's Dean - I don't know how he made it that far, I don't.

Dean and Sam
And Sam... Hearing from Dean that Dean didn't believe in him, and believing in Dean anyway, and saving the world cause he did, and saving Dean and OMG I'm crying just writing this, I'm so gone for this show. One of Sam's many shining moments that don't get enough attention. And Dean actually acknowledging it... OMG. Boys. After all the bad stuff that's happened between them in seasons 4-5, all the trust issues, being able to trust each other and lean on each other ...

OK

Oh - The Amulet

I still hope they do put it into some episode, ever.
Maybe in a shark -jumping sort of way.
My boy Robbie wants it back....
I'll probably be wary about it, and not consider it exactly canon, if they do - unless it's unexpectedly amazing - but I'd still like them to do it.

Silliness

Jul. 27th, 2014 03:33 pm
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*Opens Facebook*
"Who's that lesbian Facebook wants me to be friends with?"
*closer look*
"Oh, Dean again".

On the flip side (heh, heh), it turns out I recognize Dean's butt. That is, in a completely unrelated search, google offered me (in a completely not stockery creepy way, google!) a picture of Dean's butt, and I didn't even stop to process it, just - computer image, computer image, Dean's butt, computer image... I showed the picture and told the story to some friends who were online, and it turns out some of them recognized it too without a blink. I guess it's just a pretty famous picture, more than the butt itself. You know it too.
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SMG: "What do u think?? I could take them right!?! "



Probly, yeah. They're not great on women, and you're Buffy. I mean, you're gonna kick Dean's ass, you always win against people who call women names ,always, always. Just don't sleep with Sam.
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Title: Back For Good
Relationship: John/Sam/Dean
Words: 400
Rating: I never know these things – very soft R? Most is implied.
Note: After Dead Man's Blood, there was a brief moment where it was like they were on more equal ground, like the three of them could be respectful and appreciative and just good together.
This is - not even experimental, it's just - it's - I had a crappy day and I wanted to bring this something else into the world, not sure what.


Summary: John always knows what to do.
Read more... )
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What if Dean's not telling Sam (he perhaps could have convinced him to do things Dean's way, he often does, like in Sacrifice), and not telling Cas, even, even though Cas was likely to be understanding - what if it's partially because Dean doesn't feel he deserves to have a happy ending?

I've been uncomfortable about about how the Batcave was too much to give the boys and still expect the series premise to remain stable and the boys to remain stable. Perhaps, being given something that big, the same way Sam retreated into himself and didn't quite take it (room etc), perhaps Dean needed it to be less good in order to be able to - IDK, exist in it?

He always said he wasn't gonna ever get an ending like that - gonna die young and that. And then he accepted it really well, enjoying it all - perhaps that was only while he didn't expect it to last? And as soon as he realized they did live there, and he had Sam, and they had a way in which Sam could perhaps enjoy the life while also not giving up his scholarly tendencies, and Cas was around, and even Kevin and Charlie were there a bit - family(ish) - perhaps that was simply too much - too foreign? And trouble, and having to worry about Sam and the supernatural, and even being horrible guilty - were at least something he knew how to deal with?

Probably, had he lost Sam, it would have been a whole lot like being with Lisa - and he couldn't go through that again... but still, he could have made it less of a problem, I believe.

And an unrelated Wincesty quote from 910 )
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Title: Where Angels Fear to Tread
Author: CitrusJava
Pairing/rating: Gen
Spoilers: Up to 904
Characters: Dean, Zeke, Sam
Disclaimer: This is fanfic. Boys and world aren't mine, just taking them out for a joy ride, wind in our windows and blasting Metallica. You should try that, too.
Words: ~1200


Summary: What could happen after 904, but won't.


Sam is worryingly secretive about what's gonna happen to the Lannisters )
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"thousands of superpowered dicks touching down, and we got no idea where to start"





Where's my slightly inappropriate, possibly sexist or homophobic or incredibly slashy Dean response ? Are we done with those? :/
Or just:

You're gonna need a bigger mouth.

(ok, now I feel dirty)
(gifs not by me, linking back to where I found them)
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One year ago today, I got into Supernatural. And I was planning on doing a thing, but it turns out the whole fandom has a Supernatural birthday today too! :D
It's kinda awesome that SPN shares my SPN anniversary (ok, the other way around). The only likely conclusion is that some fans cast a spell last year, to bring new fans into the fandom, and I'm one of them. Thank you for not making me fall in love with a donkey, you guys!

So maybe I'll do a thing in the near future, today wanna tell my "getting into SPN" story :)

I was really into Sherlock, and going crazy over the lack of new episodes. And there was this show I was told was not a shallow misogynistic icky one, though it seemed to be. I'd tried watching a few episodes*, but it just didn't really catch me. But I had nothing to watch, so I gave it yet another shot, deciding to disregard the spoiler problem and start from season 4. After School Special. And then I stayed for anther ep, and another, watched five or so that night.

And I thought - this is great! It'll be like methadone, get me over the Sherlock cravings, and it's safe, it's not anything I'm gonna fall in love with!

Happy birthday, Supernatural, show and fandom, I love you )
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Rewatched part of Bloodlust. In it, Dean says he "embraced the life" at 16.

I wonder what Dean was like before the hunt that changed his attitude toward hunting. Did he have doubts but didn't share them? Didn't want to do it but stayed quiet? Did John take him on the hunt that changed his mind because he noticed something?

Perhaps Dean wasn't always the good kid, perhaps he ever said no to John, yelled at him? Perhaps it wasn't just Sammy? Perhaps Sam was too young to be as confrontational and rebellious as later, perhaps he was the good kid for a while.

Anyhow, quote. )
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I'd been saying I need a first time Sam/Dean for every time they didn't kiss, every time they looked at each other in one o those ways, every time I was somehow surprised when a scene ended with the subtext still only subtexty.

Today I was listening to fic, Dean angsting about Sam being his brother, and found myself thinking "Sheesh, dude, we know. Get over it". Perhaps I'm getting closer to closing that initial quota :-)

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