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Lets bring something good into the world. Let's hold hands, if only virtually, and not be alone in this. Let's reaffirm that we care about each other, and we don't stand for bigotry. Let's write (and draw and record and stuff).

Prompts are open for anything - any or no ships, any or no kinks, go for it.

Extra cookies if your prompt negates some bigoted concept, we could give love in places it's particularly lacking right now. We can reaffirm that we all have a place here, that we stand with each other. Women, POC, survivors, immigrants, disabled people, fat people, MOGAI people, poor people, etc - especially anyone that's more than one of those things - deserve some extra love, today and in general.... But prompts don't have to do that - anything comforting is welcome, and different things comfort different people! Fun, fluffy, funny, porny, angry, dark, it's ok!

Breadline by [ profile] toratio, Sam&Dean, money issues
Sam/Dean, body autonomy, lived experience of mi, by anon
It's the end of the world as we know it (and I feel fine) by [ profile] toratio Domestic end of the world!
In the Bones by laughablelament, aer leaving the bunker with John's journal, Mary ends up using it as a roadmap

(ETA: !!!! I am so excited and comforted by you being here and caring and by your generousity! Ahh! I has only been a few hours and already we have fills! Thank you!!!! And that you to the people sharing this - you are awesome!!!!)

How this works:
How to prompt: Leave a comment with a prompt, preferably with some basic information in the subject line (ship/gen/character, kink, genre - whatever works for you). You can leave as many prompts as you like.

How to fill: Comment to any prompt you like with fic, art, podfic, playlists, gifsets - any form of fanwork is welcome. Feel free to fill prompts that were already filled. If you feel like leaving anon fills, go for it! If you feel like leaving cute little 'created in ten minutes' fills for fun - those are welcome too!

1) Be kind.
2) No spoilers for unaired episodes without a cut/link, please.
3) Use content warnings generously, please. It only takes a moment, and can make the difference between brightening someone's day and making it horrible. We've got enough horrible.
4) Anything promoting bigotry should not be included. If you're not sure, you're welcome to ask me, we can try to figure it out together. If something bothers you - same thing. Sometimes things can be bigoted without bad intent, we'll try to navigate this with compassion if it happens here now. Most things are ok if you clearly warn for them.

Tell the world!

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All the cool kids are doing the movie meme. Which is cool - 10 movies that somehow resonate or express who you are, where you are as a person now. But there are such few movies that I feel resonate much about me - I wanna do this with fic! I really hope the authors see this as compliments. What I'm saying is - this really resonated with me, touched me and stayed with me.
This is very far from being a comprehensive list.

Meme text:
Choose 10(ish) fics or other fan creations that resonate with who you are right now, as a person.
Optional: Add a work or two that you created, that do the same.

Credit in the Straight World by [ profile] vaingirlfic, podfic by [ profile] ann_ciudad
Needs Must by [ profile] thatotherperv, podfic by [ profile] dodificus
or Hands in my Hair, podfic by [ profile] anna_unfolding
Into the World Breathes Life , by [ profile] checkthemargins podfic by [ profile] heardtheowl
The Fetters of Fenrir by Leonidaslion
Odysseus, American by [ profile] coyotesuspect, podfic by [ profile] zempasuchil
Little Earthquakes by ProphecyGirl, BtVS
Only Sweeter by [ profile] rivkat, podfic by [ profile] yourrighteye
Fic by [ profile] balder12, particularly when Sam's prominent.
This is All Very Meta by [ profile] road_rhythm, podfic by [ profile] applegeuse
Leader of the Pack by [ profile] astolat
(ahh, so many others more!)

Also gonna choose two by me -
Try to Do it As Beautifully
and When She Talks, I Hear the Revolution, also podfic

ETA: If anyone feels like doing this too - of course, go for it! If you feel like it, leave a link in the comments, I'd like to read it!
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Snagged from [ profile] balder12

I haven't finished and posted that much fic, so perhaps I'll answer about writing in general, if I don't have a good enough fic answer.

Put a number in the comments and I’ll answer accordingly. The mission for those of us who answer the questions, should we accept it, is to stay positive about our writing and ourselves, but to also be fair about our shortcomings.

1. Of the fic you’ve written, of which are you most proud?
2. Favorite tense
3. Favorite POV
4. What are some themes you love writing about?
5. What inspires you to write?
6. Thoughts on critique
7. Create a character on the spot... NOW!
8. Is there a character you love writing for the most? The least? Why?
9. A passage from a WIP
10. What are your strengths in writing?
11. What are your weaknesses in writing?
12. Anything else that you want to know... (otherwise known as Fill in the Blank)
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This is for [ profile] cantarina1 's prompt, and is part of the December Days meme. If you feel like it, you can prompt me too, here. Image isn't mine - linking back to where it's from.

I love podfic for so many reasons. These are only a few. First, the community around it seems to be really cool, a lot of awesome people. I had the pleasure of meeting some wonderful people through podfic, such as [ profile] nickelmountain and [ profile] applegeuse/ I like that the community is pretty socially aware, and friendly, and open to experimentation. I think I'd like to get to know the community better.

My early days in podfic
Last year I fell head over heels, deeply, for Dean, Sam, Jensen and Jared. With podfic, they were with me a lot of the time - some of the most amazing, best stories of the fandom going with me, holding my hand, inspiring me, fascinating, shocking, turning me on, making me fall for the characters and the fandom more, too, getting to know them better. It was meaningful, still is. It was about them and about fandom and about myself.

I react to the fic in my ears. I have laughed, gasped, stopped to just breathe with scenes that had a lot of impact. On the bus, on the street, at the shop, at uni, at the library - I'm that freak. But it's fun to care about what I'm listening to, and why not allow myself to smile or laugh or even cry, without having to explain myself to people. And it's good to have an option to have this thing going that is mine, and disconnected from where I am or what I'm experiencing. You can call it a safe word, only it's often for things I never consented to to begin with. You can call it escapism, but that's only partially true. IMO. Perhaps call it a lifeline (sometimes).

More personal reasons
Podfic is mobile home, comfort, a place to hide, something that reminds me of part of myself. A sanctuary of subjectivity. A sort of resistance, even if just for me. Gives me strength to deal, gives me a sort of armor sometimes.

There's a particular street where I'm always sexually harassed and/or harassed for being fat. When I have to walk there, I need podfic in my headphones. When I'd flee from fights with family, and just wander around outside feeling helpless, I held onto podfic - for balance, for perspective, or just to cope - for good or bad.. Something good before I had to go back and face things.

When I had to go to my mom's house, last time before we stopped talking, I was seriously scared. I listened to podfic. In my mind, I went in with fandom-Jensen, with his caring attitude and that empathic charm in his smiling eyes, holding my hand, and fandom-Jared - bouncy sweet and smart, protective and earnest and silly , holding the other. I made it through that.

A couple of months ago, uni decided to force people to show picture ID in order to get into campus. I don't want to, since it feels intrusive, and I want to be an ally to people whose ID can endanger them, and also - being genderqueer, my ID doesn't have the right gender on it. And I hate hate hate having to present it. So every time I needed to get into campus, I'd have to go through an intentionally draining and somewhat humiliating process with campus police. I started dreading going to uni. Perhaps I'll just skip this class, or I don't have the energy to go through that just to get to the library. Podfic was something to get me there, to give me the energy and comfort to still do it.

One of the reasons it works for me, is - It's an imagined ally, I can pretend to myself that those people would have understood my weird ramblings about gender or whatever, that I have that, have someone like that. It's something to hold onto, and that's meaningful, thta can make the difference. For me. It's the main reason I am still not over, still talking about real-Jensen's attitude about bisexuality.

Readers <3
With some readers, it feels intimate - sharing the love for the story or the characters. I love hearing emotion in readers' voices, and I often like it when they are "present" rather than "transparent", like that they share with me something of them. The character's feelings that they identify with, or their feelings about the story. And it's not about how bouncy the reading is - some very subtle readings convey so much beautiful emotion. And then other readers let the story be most noticeable, just give it space, clean. I don't notice their reading, they allow me to dive into the story and forget that it's just fic. Which is very generous, respectful - a gift. Those readers make space for me as a listener to be attentive to the story, the characters, the way the story makes me feel, sometimes. To listen to myself or lose the world in it.

Some readers make all the difference.

Still, I often don't know how to give feedback to readers, especially since my taste is basically my quirks. Probably shouldn't say "I really enjoyed how you stumbled over your words when the plot became dramatic, it was real, sweet, and I identified with you", "I didn't notice your reading at all! Thank you" or even "I've come to associate your voice with good things" - and I'm never sure whether people would want to hear how sexy I find their reading or voice, so mostly just I shut up about that.

On a different note - Happy birthday!
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[ profile] mashimero prompted me to write about coffee, or "what is your favourite hot drink to have on a cold winter day?" I'm a day early, but it's the sort of day to write about things like that on.
This is part of the December Days meme. If you feel like it, you can prompt me too, here.

December Days: Coffee and Favorite Warm Drinks

I rarely pick a favorite anything, but a warm drink I love is chai tea made with soy milk. I like it with or without a rosewater twist. It's just so yummy. I'd been drinking it for years, but it became my go to favorite drink for a while, during NaNoWriMo a few years ago. I'd stay up late, sometimes in the dark, in order to allow everyone to sleep, and write - I think that year it was a story about a mother who gets wished away by her kids, and sent to a magical school for the worst parents - the Hogwarts of correctional facilities. The people she meets there, the secret things going on at night, and eventually getting saved. Never did manage to finish it.

I used to drink it, when possible, in my favorite mug - a heavy, light blue, large mug I'd gotten for GF. She wanted a heavy, thick, large mug that was straight rather than cone-shaped. She had a theory that it kept the liquid warm for longer. I looked for a mug like that for her for years... got her so many mugs that weren't exactly what she was after. My light-blue mug was one of them, and it was fantastic. I loved it. It had a small chip that was part of it's charm. One day, though, IIRC, it broke a bit more. I didn't want to get rid of it, and GF ended up hurting her hand on the edge, and getting a little scar, which I still feel horrible for.

As for coffee, I mostly drink it in one of two situations. The first -just to order something at coffee places, when I need a place to work. I mostly drink decaf, with soy milk and no sweetening. It sometimes works as a treat, when I'm writing particularly hard things, like a favorite toy or having someone hold your hand. Another time I often have coffee is at uni - there's a coffee corner where it's sold for cost, trusting people to just leave the money for it there. It's pretty bad coffee, and it's kinda awesome to manage to actually have all the ingredients there, but they often have soy milk, and it's great to have something warm and comforting during break, particularly when it's hard early morning or late evening classes.

Oh! And those aren't exactly my things, but when we celebrated Christmas I used to make kickass spiced wine and apple cider :)
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This is for [ profile] glovered. I wrote a huge, thought-through serious post about whether or not it's my place to write about Rufus at all, and about the way SPN treats characters who aren't white men. I'll spare you that post.

Doing some research for this post made me more fond of Rufus. At first, it was more like when you meet someone's new boyfriend, and you're happy for them, and you're nice, and you don't ask embarrassing questions even when you're really bored, but you just don't get the appeal. I feel that way about almost all minor SPN characters before season 8.

He's tough and has that twinkle in his eyes – which seems to be the basic characterization of most minor characters the writers couldn't be bothered to invest in. It's nice, there's potential, but SPN didn't do much with it, unless I missed something important (which seriously may be the case, there are episodes I only watched once, before getting into fandom). As it is, I was never that interested, particularly not compared to fascinatingly developed characters like the Winchersters. Seriously, the guy's cabin appeared in way more episodes than the man himself, based on Superwiki.

Like with most minor SPN characters, this can be significantly different for me in fic. Because bless fandom. I can't say I've read it a lot, or even seen much around, but taking that tough, charming guy and looking into his history and psychology, what motivates him, his relationship with Bobby, definitely has potential. I'd check out a show about Rufus and Bobby doing the monster hunting road trip thing, fighting about music, living in motel rooms, drinking and griping at each other. For sure. That could be *awesome*. Better still if Bobby were still in that wheel chair. Even a fic about the weird things the guys found while living in his cabin could be interesting.

After I wrote this I decided to check, and yeah, could hardly find any Rufus fic at all. And now that I've thought about it, I want them. Along with all the Meg and Missouri not out there. And John/Team Free Will. Have to admit, though, I am mostly interested in Sam and Dean in fic, though. It's weird, I'm used to being interested in fic about the most minor characters. For whatever reason, in SPN I love the main characters, and am pretty monogamous, on top of that.
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[ profile] applegeuse said "Share a happy, cozy memory from your childhood". Here are two. Hope you like, bb :-)
This is part of the December Days meme. If you feel like it, you can prompt me too, here.
There were some cool things about my family, growing up, but it was usually more about adventure or fun than it was about comfort and safety. I do have some cozy memories though.

I remember one day on my way back from school I got soaked in rain, I remember the white sleeves of my cloth coat being wet, and my hands being red from the cold. I didn't think much of it, but when I got home, my mom got me to get dry and bundle up in her robe, and have some soup - it was her special soup - mushroom soup made from powder with milk instead of some of water. It was this unexpected bit of care I felt weird about, and but it was nice, too.

I remember going to bed, around the same time period, I was around 7 - I had footie pajamas, which I adored, all cozy and nice inside. My heavy winter blanket was cool at first touch and very smooth, which I loved. One side of it was pink and the other blue, and it was a little shiny. My mattress had bunnies on it, and when the Disney sheets were clean and not used by my siblings, it was particularly wonderful. My mom had also gotten me to put stickers on my bed - I remember I had a few large fairies with flowers, that were the thick kind of stickers, my favorite. And I had promotional stickers given to anyone who parked at a local parking lot, which were shaped like huge red hears and had the name of the place, that I liked to visit.

I'd take a shower, and sometimes I got to go to bed with wet hair, but sometimes I had to dry my hair at least a little bit – which I I didn't like. It was fun for the "wee, wind in my face!" moment, but then it got boring and long, and the heat of the hair dryer hurt when it was too much. When I was ready for bed, my mother's husband would pick me up and bounce me into the bed from above – one of the funnest things ever IMO at the time - and my mother would tuck me in all cozy, and one of them would usually read me a good night story. I felt clean and loved and bundles up and cared for :-)

I tried to remember what stories we read at the time, and I don't, but I did remember that at six it was Doctor Dolittle, and that when I was sick I'd snagged the book and continued reading it myself - first "real" book I read part of myself :) I apologized to my mother's husband for continuing without him, thinking it might hurt his feelings, but that we'd continue from where we'd stopped together. He didn't want to (I thought he'd care about the plot too!), though he didn't seem bothered that I'd read on, and a short while after that I got a surprise - my first book - that I'd read a million times over the years - about a girl who found a fairy who went looking for adventure outside of her storybook.
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Title: Super-Size Me
Fandom: Supernatural RPF
Relationships: Jensen/Jared, Jensen/Jared/Misha
Rating: NC-17
Warnings/Kinks: Size kink, cock worship, come play. Silliness.
Disclaimer: As far as I know, this never happened. I fondly wish those involved well.
Notes: Thank you to [ profile] balder12 for her awesome beta and encouragement. You rock.
Written for the [ profile] j2_crack Enchantment Gone Wrong Comment-Meme
The hamster vid referred to is this one.
Prompt by [ profile] sweetspicyhot: Established J2 relationship, can be AU or not. Jensen gets greedy and casts a spell to make a certain part of Jared's anatomy even bigger. The spell backfires and suddenly all of Jared is exponentially bigger--giant sized. The spell will right itself in 48 hours. But Jared is horny and Jensen must find a way to get him off. Definitely NC-17 on this one, will Jensen need help?, an additional cast member or friend--it's up to you!

Summary: Jensen's spell did not go as planned. Now Jared keeps growing and growing, and something has to be done, fast!

The spell – as spells do – had gone wrong )


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