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citrusjava) wrote2013-04-29 06:37 pm
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Not-fic and fannish moments
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deirdre_c said community-building and fannishness, and I found myself saying I'll try to post every day this week. Cause aww, fannish communities <3
So hey, if there's anything you'd like me to post about, let me know.
Today - a fic-concept I dreamed last night, and some dorky fannish stuff in my life that made me happy.
Not-Fic
Dreamed I was reading fic (that I haven't actually read).
Dean was the brother who had the powers. Sam did worry, but had more of a "fuck it, who says it's a bad thing?" attitude. Dean went through the whole "you might have to kill me" thing, more readily than Sam had in canon. Sam was grimly clear about refusing to do so. Eventually, Dean got a promise out of Sam, cause Sam was certain, and not bothering to hide it, that Dean was not going evil. Dean had a backup plan with Bobby, for when Sam was going to break his promise, but Sam didn't need to know about that. It was surprising to Dean, especially after the years apart, that Sam never hesitated about aligning wherever it put them, in order to stand by Dean. But Dean never allows himself to enjoy such thoughts, and focused on being a little scared those were Sam's priorities. Could he even hunt if that was the sort of decision he made?
Sam wanted Dean try to learn to control the powers. Dean was torn between not wanting to be well-trained if he did go evil, having to admit it made sense to learn to control the powers, and mostly just being scared and disgusted and wanting to pretend nothing was happening. They decided, both bitching about it, that Dean would train, and Sam would research ways of stopping Dean had he gone evil. Meanwhile, Dean's visions were helping them save people, but the side effects were pretty unpleasant. That went on for a while in the background of regular hunting.
It turned out, through observation rather than Sam's worried research, that the side effects were triggered by Dean's trouble with himself. The more self loathing and internal struggle, the worst the side effects became.
In the dream, it was like "So Sam helped Dean stop hating himself and everything got better". I thought that was cheesy and woke up.
But now, thinking about it, I would love to read something like that, Dean having to deal with some of his issues cause they were manifesting physically (which means "real", to Dean).
Come to think of it, it's such a BtVS plot, Dean's issues manifesting into something supernatural – I can't believe that wasn't the plot of a million episodes. But I like that unlike on BtVS, when that happened in Mystery Spot with Sam's, Sam didn't feel he deserved it at all, didn't "learn something", just fought, begged, cause something was being done to him and Dean.
Happily Being Fannish:
I noticed ever since it happened, I've been using"like episode 811" the way you'd used "do a 180".
Do you know how Doctor Who lovers sometimes pause mid-sentence and listen very intently, for sounds of the TARDIS landing? I found myself doing that a couple of days ago. Something definitely sounded like the Impala. That slow, rich engine rumble.
Told a Whovian friend that now all I needed was an Impala ringtone (and a phone), so she found me this :-)
Huh. Unexpectedly hot.
deirdre_c said community-building and fannishness, and I found myself saying I'll try to post every day this week. Cause aww, fannish communities <3So hey, if there's anything you'd like me to post about, let me know.
Today - a fic-concept I dreamed last night, and some dorky fannish stuff in my life that made me happy.
Not-Fic
Dreamed I was reading fic (that I haven't actually read).
Dean was the brother who had the powers. Sam did worry, but had more of a "fuck it, who says it's a bad thing?" attitude. Dean went through the whole "you might have to kill me" thing, more readily than Sam had in canon. Sam was grimly clear about refusing to do so. Eventually, Dean got a promise out of Sam, cause Sam was certain, and not bothering to hide it, that Dean was not going evil. Dean had a backup plan with Bobby, for when Sam was going to break his promise, but Sam didn't need to know about that. It was surprising to Dean, especially after the years apart, that Sam never hesitated about aligning wherever it put them, in order to stand by Dean. But Dean never allows himself to enjoy such thoughts, and focused on being a little scared those were Sam's priorities. Could he even hunt if that was the sort of decision he made?
Sam wanted Dean try to learn to control the powers. Dean was torn between not wanting to be well-trained if he did go evil, having to admit it made sense to learn to control the powers, and mostly just being scared and disgusted and wanting to pretend nothing was happening. They decided, both bitching about it, that Dean would train, and Sam would research ways of stopping Dean had he gone evil. Meanwhile, Dean's visions were helping them save people, but the side effects were pretty unpleasant. That went on for a while in the background of regular hunting.
It turned out, through observation rather than Sam's worried research, that the side effects were triggered by Dean's trouble with himself. The more self loathing and internal struggle, the worst the side effects became.
In the dream, it was like "So Sam helped Dean stop hating himself and everything got better". I thought that was cheesy and woke up.
But now, thinking about it, I would love to read something like that, Dean having to deal with some of his issues cause they were manifesting physically (which means "real", to Dean).
Come to think of it, it's such a BtVS plot, Dean's issues manifesting into something supernatural – I can't believe that wasn't the plot of a million episodes. But I like that unlike on BtVS, when that happened in Mystery Spot with Sam's, Sam didn't feel he deserved it at all, didn't "learn something", just fought, begged, cause something was being done to him and Dean.
Happily Being Fannish:
I noticed ever since it happened, I've been using
Do you know how Doctor Who lovers sometimes pause mid-sentence and listen very intently, for sounds of the TARDIS landing? I found myself doing that a couple of days ago. Something definitely sounded like the Impala. That slow, rich engine rumble.
Told a Whovian friend that now all I needed was an Impala ringtone (and a phone), so she found me this :-)
Huh. Unexpectedly hot.