I watched the show from the beginning as I was a Jensen Ackles fan since his DOOL days...and then Dark Angel, and Dawson's Creek (which is maybe my first show love). I didn't discover fandom until "monster at the end of this book", where I was like hey, Sam/Dean? is that for real? OMG WHAT HAVE I BEEN MISSING OUT ON????? It coincided with my Mother dying and was just a perfect thing to distract me and focus on and fandom means alot to me for those reasons. It just became my happy happy place, you know instead of watching tv all day and being sad and thinking that the ladies on The View are my besties. I guess that's why my tattoo is so important to me, it's not just Dean, it's fandom and all the good feels and how new important and wonderful things can come into your life and surprise you.

I am more in love with fandom probably than I am the show. I would give up the show for fanfiction hands down. As long as I didn't have to give up Jensen Ackles's face. That's why I don't angst too much about what's happening on the show, I'm happy just to see the boys interact every week and then let fandom fix it all. I am a fangirl of fangirls, I just think they're wonderful♥