I think it's partly that I'm angry at Dean in ways that make it hard for me to write him fairly
I get the falling out of... shipping. So sweet of you as a writer to be aware of this attitude towards Dean, and deciding what to do with it in such a respectful and responsible way...
It might have been a very different version of Sam though--I often feel like my Sam is fan fic of de_nugis's fan fic.
That's such cool distinction, and I've definitely read fic like that, though as a reader who loves both your fics, I don't have the same feelings towards your Sams, I experience them differently, I believe... then again, that's true for fic/canon characters as well.
I sometimes regret I didn't write fan fic back when I really shipped Sam/Dean (essentially the first five seasons)
Ahh!
It's actually kind of remarkable how few stories I've written where Sam and Dean even talk to each other
Sad... I understand, but that's so sad... :-(
Right now my shippy feelings are entirely focused on Sam/Kevin for reasons I don't fully understand. Some part of my brain seems to have decided that since I don't identify with Cas anymore, I'm going to identify with Kevin instead.
Good thing Kevin's an option, I'm glad you have that.
I agree with you that I don't really care whether the relationship between characters is sexual or not. If I read a fic where two people I ship have an intense-but-platonic emotional scene, that can be just as satisfying to me as porn, and maybe more so.
*nodnodnod*
That's probably why I love hurt/comfort so much.
Interesting. On paper I so should love the non-triggery parts of that genre! And I've loved - like, the fic that changed my mind about slave!fic was some AU in which Jared saves Jensen from a neglectful master and metaphorically cuddles him back to emotional stability. I'd define that as h/c... but for some reason, I don't enjoy most of the fic in that genre that I've tried. Perhaps it's simply the triggeriness.
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I get the falling out of... shipping.
So sweet of you as a writer to be aware of this attitude towards Dean, and deciding what to do with it in such a respectful and responsible way...
It might have been a very different version of Sam though--I often feel like my Sam is fan fic of de_nugis's fan fic.
That's such cool distinction, and I've definitely read fic like that, though as a reader who loves both your fics, I don't have the same feelings towards your Sams, I experience them differently, I believe... then again, that's true for fic/canon characters as well.
I sometimes regret I didn't write fan fic back when I really shipped Sam/Dean (essentially the first five seasons)
Ahh!
It's actually kind of remarkable how few stories I've written where Sam and Dean even talk to each other
Sad... I understand, but that's so sad...
:-(
Right now my shippy feelings are entirely focused on Sam/Kevin for reasons I don't fully understand. Some part of my brain seems to have decided that since I don't identify with Cas anymore, I'm going to identify with Kevin instead.
Good thing Kevin's an option, I'm glad you have that.
I agree with you that I don't really care whether the relationship between characters is sexual or not. If I read a fic where two people I ship have an intense-but-platonic emotional scene, that can be just as satisfying to me as porn, and maybe more so.
*nodnodnod*
That's probably why I love hurt/comfort so much.
Interesting. On paper I so should love the non-triggery parts of that genre! And I've loved - like, the fic that changed my mind about slave!fic was some AU in which Jared saves Jensen from a neglectful master and metaphorically cuddles him back to emotional stability. I'd define that as h/c... but for some reason, I don't enjoy most of the fic in that genre that I've tried. Perhaps it's simply the triggeriness.