So sweet of you as a writer to be aware of this attitude towards Dean, and deciding what to do with it in such a respectful and responsible way...
I don't know how much it's 'responsible' and how much it's just how I write, but I try very hard not to write a character unless I feel emotionally detached enough to look at them at least somewhat objectively. Like, I think Gadreel did some morally terrible things, but I don't feel personally angry at him, so it's still possible for me to write his pov. Ditto Crowley. I've run across writers in fandom who use their fic to play out their grudges and aggrandize their favorite character at the expense of any one else's subjectivity, and there are few things I find more distasteful. If you ever catch me doing that, slap me (in a respectful, verbal way :) )
On paper I so should love the non-triggery parts of that genre! And I've loved - like, the fic that changed my mind about slave!fic was some AU in which Jared saves Jensen from a neglectful master and metaphorically cuddles him back to emotional stability. I'd define that as h/c... but for some reason, I don't enjoy most of the fic in that genre that I've tried. Perhaps it's simply the triggeriness.
I think part of it, too, is that you have to love the hurt as well as the comfort. I like seeing my favorites hurt mentally and physically, even if I can't totally pin down why. If you only enjoy the 'comfort' half of the equation, the genre's probably not going to do it for you.
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I don't know how much it's 'responsible' and how much it's just how I write, but I try very hard not to write a character unless I feel emotionally detached enough to look at them at least somewhat objectively. Like, I think Gadreel did some morally terrible things, but I don't feel personally angry at him, so it's still possible for me to write his pov. Ditto Crowley. I've run across writers in fandom who use their fic to play out their grudges and aggrandize their favorite character at the expense of any one else's subjectivity, and there are few things I find more distasteful. If you ever catch me doing that, slap me (in a respectful, verbal way :) )
On paper I so should love the non-triggery parts of that genre! And I've loved - like, the fic that changed my mind about slave!fic was some AU in which Jared saves Jensen from a neglectful master and metaphorically cuddles him back to emotional stability. I'd define that as h/c... but for some reason, I don't enjoy most of the fic in that genre that I've tried. Perhaps it's simply the triggeriness.
I think part of it, too, is that you have to love the hurt as well as the comfort. I like seeing my favorites hurt mentally and physically, even if I can't totally pin down why. If you only enjoy the 'comfort' half of the equation, the genre's probably not going to do it for you.