just why i haven't been here

[citrusjava]

there was something very triggery on lj -
so just - needed to go into "ball form"....





now -
my mom died last week - it both made worse and maybe less bad for her having beeen abusive - but also worse in o many ways.... and..... just that - yea

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[belleweather.livejournal.com]

Oh no. No matter what the relationship, that's got to be a complicated bundle of suck. Be nice to yourself, and we'll be thinking of you as you sort through this.

[citrusjava.livejournal.com]

thank you so much, this is such a kin thoughtful reply