Day 1

Jan. 1st, 2016 10:09 pm
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why you are doing the Fandom Snowflake Challenge? What drew you to it as a participant? What do you hope to accomplish by doing these challenges?

I am a little shy, doing this :)

I love fandom and fandom people a LOT, it’s one of (some of) the important reationships in my life.

I don’t know almost anybody on DreamWidth, and this might be a good place to get to know people. Truth is, I don’t have a fan platform/community where I feel comfortable, so maybe here – and/or maybe I will get to meet some lovely, creative, caring, responsible, awesome new friends here. Maybe!

I like that this challenge seems like a lax, caring, welcoming space :)
It seems like it might be ok here, to be vulnerable, not in the best place, raucous, direct, shy….
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Pairing/rating: Sam/Dean or Sam&Dean
Words: ~1190
Warnings: spoilers for aired episodes, quick, unbeta'ed, blood and patching up, self harm themes
Notes: For [livejournal.com profile] kalliel, who prompted for Sam and Dean interacting in that way that isn't clearly yes or not romantic or sexual, without being aware of it.

Summary: It's been a long while since Dean stitched up Sam after a hunt.




The memory is copper in Dean's mouth )
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Title: hard to take courage
Pairing: Sam/Dean / Sam&Dean
Rating: :gen
Word: 550
Note: I am writing quick, unbeta'ed stuff, mainly to distract myself from the holidays. If you like, come donate a prompt (anon/pm is fine, more than one is fine, though I might not write everything). Details are here

Summary: for [livejournal.com profile] balder12's prompt: Dean plays with the giant rainbow slinky

At first, Dean just - kinda, holds it- shut up! He's wanted it for years!

It rests in Dean's lap as he drives them away, and he feels up the shape of it as he drives, fingers under the top circle, smooths the curve of the column, the ridges inside.

Dean can see Sam hiding a smile, but it's a fond one, like when he can't help but laugh at Dean's jokes. Doesn't say a word. Knows what is good for him, bitch is covered in glitter.


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Dean steps out to get the gas pump, and when he's back, it's gone.

"Give it back" Dean makes Dad's hand gesture, Dad's tone. This is important hunter business.

"What?" Sam asks, voice casual innocence. Dean glares. Sam raises an eyebrow, shrugs big, fake-smiles. But there is a real smile there too, the sort Dean hasn't seen in a long while, and Dean knows he is smiling like an idiot too. He dives for under Sam's seat, and of course there it is. Sam pulls it away, but in the car Sam can't use him monster arm reach, and Dean's got him pinned in a second, sitting on him like the bitch he is and grabbing what's his.


Sam gives up easy, smirks, like all he wanted was to prove Dean would fight for it. Dean goes for Sam's hair, something between a ruffle and a noogie, and that is a mistake.

"Sam! The car!" he yells, incredulous. His Baby might never again be free of glitter. Bedazzled hairy sasquatch of a brother. Always said Sam was a pussy.

Gonna vacuum her all better soon as possible.


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When Sam is asleep that night, Dean slips out. There are five steps leading up to the motel's entrance.

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The steps are too wide, that's what it is.

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OK, a slinky as large as this just needs more acceleration power behind it, not like the puny metal things that kids get their fingers stuck in.


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Dean can just go on a beer run, they'll need beer - at some point . And if he happens to find a good, steep staircase, driving around looking for a place to get beer - well, then, he'll be prepared.

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It's like parkour, really, who else goes around searching for steep danger-stairs at midnight? It's good for a hunter.

Really, Sam should be practicing this too.

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It's why Dean wanted the slinky to begin with, after all, playing with Sam.



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Sam wakes up with Lucifer whispering in his ear. Dean is not there.
Maybe back in hell? Maybe shot by Dick Roman, or eaten by a ghoul?

Sam isn't surprised to find Dean behind the motel, in a dark alley, racing his slinky down some steps.

He isn't surprised, but he can breathe again without feeling like his ribs are cracked.

Dean is smiling, winded in his t-shirt, eyes crinkling like he doesn't remember there is anything else in the world.

He starts a little when he realizes Sam is there, then his smile widens with pleasure. He hands Sam a beer and it looks too grown up for dean's smile at that moment, but Dean opens it with his ring, one smooth move, capable hands. Dean.

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Sam bumps Dean's shoulder and sits down with him.

Wanna?

Dec. 18th, 2015 02:57 pm
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ETA: (I say we do this with 10 words, not six)

Sam insists incest trumps horse fucking

Sam is good with hell hounds

Dean woos Sam with rape kink

kids sure are annoying (even Winchesters)
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You guys, Waterbird13 wrote me such a sweet Wincesty fill, old school fic - a little pining, loving brother Dean, some hope after bad things them putting each other and their relationship first - set some time after s10, I'm a sucker for Wichesters falling in love later....

For the prompt: After hell, demi!Sam is sex repulsed. Which is not a big deal for some time, it gets comfortable - that is, till he starts to fall in love
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I am feeling lonely and sad, and the winter holidays coming remind me of how lonely I was last Christmas (it was good to be on my own with my boundaries, but also very alone, and it was one of the coldest winters), and ok - maybe I shouldn't be writing about that now....

Anyway - I'm gonna tray to do the Snowflake Challenge - they did say no deadline, so!



Day 1

In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.








Return is one of my most important fics for me. A lot of my soul is in it, and for me it is one of my best and most meaningful. I might have though of it as bad or unworthy, but it is almost impossible to do with enthusiastic encouragement like [livejournal.com profile] kalliel's (THANK YOU, you amazing person, whenever you read this! <3)
Pairing: background Dean/Sam
Rating: gen
Summary: Outsiders would tell you, sometimes tell her at toll booths or rest stops, that she is fat, and hairy, and old. Some people call her things for that. She has many names.


Save You from the Dragons is one of the very first podfics I'd managed to complete editing (because editing is made of torturous hell). I was still so naive, at awe and in love with this show, my show.... I'd recorded some other podfics trying to please my recipient(s) and forcing myself a little bit too far off of where I was comfortable with.
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: pg-13
Summary: During Sam's demon blood detox, he talks.
Warnings: background canon forced withdrawal, written as fluffy

Then there are Celebrate You, Baby and Try to Do it as Beautifully
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I missed this





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There is a notion, in '70's feminism, that I find still very relevant ATM, that says - women don't have to be strong, tough, ass kicking superheros to be awesome, or to deserve to be valued. A lot of things that are culturally connected with women are often devalued in our societies, and that is not justified. Things like care, encouragement, loyalty, empathy, bubbliness - they shouldn't be required from women, but people who have those, who give those, can be amazing.

For me, a lot of Donna's character is about that, especially juxtaposed with Jody. Donna cares about relationships, and puts a lot of heart and care into them. She notices. She allows her vulnerability to show. She will be there for you, she will save you a seat, she will do the annoying thankless little things that make a convention work. She's smart, and doesn't seem to pay much attention to that. She sees people and gives them a lot, does a lot of emotional work and nurturing
S he so deserves to be treasured. Not for being able to kick a vampire's ass, that is not what makes her awesome.

In 11x07 I would say most of Donna's awesome didn't show. It is typical of these writers, I won't get into my rant about them writing everybody at their shallow worst (Sam would *not* call Donna that, no). For me, that was a significant part of why this episode did not so much work for me.

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I finally got myself to a place with enough emotional space to watch 11x06 after a few rough days at home.

That moment they open that deemon's shirt and look at - that is - long long look - and some significance - and I was truly trying to understand whether they were looking at his nipple? His bruised nipple because....? torture? bdsm?

I was truly considering the option that Winchester Bros were, in canon, deeply and lengthily looking at some guy's nipple
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This is perfect, so perfect.




I'd say this is Misha correctly recognizing a question meant to fuel funawesome fan works, and just taking it another step forward just fuck it.

small spoiler for 11x04
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Someone asked me for some, and I know very few.
Any fandom - actually, even bad fics would be appreciated.
Better still if they involve things other than bondage/pain.

Thank you!
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I'd really love an online space to talk with other people reading academic texts, studying or doing research. A place to discuss texts, maybe give each other feedback or recommend relevant papers, to share whining and successes if we feel like it. To be less isolated. Research is hard. Writing is hard. To be more connected with things going on in the field(s). I'm working on my thesis, and most interested in fields that have to do with social change, but that's definitely not a must for others.

Would anyone be interested in starting that sort of group for ourselves?


Or can anyone point me in the direction of a group like that, if it already exists?


ETA: If not, and you're willing to share this anyway, it could be really great!
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Someone made a gifset of Dean claiming he is going to throw up over things he doesn't like (including one tiny spoiler for 11x05).




For

me this has some extra meaning.

Being, you know, a fan, naturally I went and read some stuff about incest. One paper I kept finding was not about incest at all, supposedly. It was about the possibility of having a physical reaction like gagging, or feeling nauseated, as a result of moral issues.

The paper explored this through the clearly nauseating concept of consensual sibling incest. Because nothing says 'gross' like consent. Worse maybe - because they didn't even consider real people whose life this might be, who might not be so happy to be reduced to a philosophical concept -
or, at that, one so vile it inspires physical reactions.

In short, this inspired in me a desire for a physical reaction between my knee and the author's balls. Even though they maybe wre n the side of this that says this is a cultural taboo and not 'wrong'.
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she is awesome
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Me: *looks at post from a few days ago*

Me: *rereads*

Me: *looks some more*

Me: I don’t understand what this has to do with the new SPN ep.

Me: Oh, that’s the date.
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I get to ramble, I can ramble )


My point is -
I keep remembering myself saying, pleasantly - "hey, that's not a fair way to communicate" and "I didn't say that, not cool ", like Richie Cunningham as a summer camp instructor....

which makes me laugh and smile at myself
because it is very hard to use that sort fo thing against you
(though some people will )

She ended up taking back one of the things she said -
but there will be no (exclusionary, ungratefulish) spaces for women (because women not coming at all because they are feeling unsafe around harass-y men, and NB people not participated because they are being mocked - that is not exclusionary) - not that she is against it.
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Go read Stranger than Fiction, then gofund the author if you can!

Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] nyxocity at Please Help Save Me and My Dogs
Most of you probably know me from fandom, some of you may know I’ve been going through a rough time trying to reestablish my life after a divorce and find a job. I’m at the end of my rope currently. I have two dogs which I have had since they were babies, Jupiter (pictured below with me) and Callisto, his sister. They both depend on me and I am at a point where I am no longer able to provide for them, or myself. The water in the house is cut off and the electric is set to be cut off any time, and I have very little food left for either my dogs or myself.

I am broke and desperate to keep the utilities on for a couple more months while I continue to try and find work. The full story is on my GO FUND ME page.

My GO FUND ME campaign is here: https://www.gofundme.com/xq8dxbsk

My rebloggable tumblr post is here: http://nyxocity.tumblr.com/post/132610934989/please-help-save-me-and-my-dogs

I’m asking for your help to keep the power and water on. To get on top of the utility bills, which will be much more affordable when there aren’t a ton of late fees, and then keep the utilities on for another two months while continuing to look for a job. I need gas money for interviews and on-foot job hunting and I also need to feed my two dogs and myself.

My situation is dire, and I need money as soon as possible to keep the lights and water on and a roof over my head. Please, if there is anything you can do to help, even just signal boost, I am begging for your help and I would be so incredibly grateful for anything you can do. My dogs don’t understand that we’re about to be on the street, but I know that if they did, they would be incredibly grateful as well. Please help me keep providing for them and myself. I just need a little more time.

We in the SPN family have accomplished some amazing things. I’m hoping maybe you can all help me pull out a miracle. <333

Me and Jupe
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Is still going and going - we have some gorgeous fills,
some good prompts yet unfilled -
and actually, we could use some more prompts!

So come leave us a prompts, anon or not !
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Welcome to the SPN Halloween themes prompt meme!

Bats, spells and broomsticks, costumes, campfire ghost stories, candy eating, costume stealing, ghoul pov, true horror and playful horror - this is the place!


Rules:
you know these already )
tl;dr: nothing remotely like a spoiler out in the open, trigger warnings, be kind, have fun.

Promote!


FILLS:
the night before halloween is the real one to watch out for. what is rowena up to?

There's a legend, an urban myth, that if on Halloween you visit a particular place, at a particular time, with a special gift, you will be rewarded with a visit from a lost one, someone who died, but was never forgotten. Sam and/or Dean check it out.

Sam dances with a skeleton. Whose?

Sam dances with a skeleton. Whose? (second fill, inspired by the first, because you people are beautiful!)

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