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episode reaction 11x04
Oct. 30th, 2015 03:43 pmThis is my reaction
for this episode
This is my reaction
for this episode
Title: Who Knows What We Might Become
Relationship: Dean/Sam
Rating: NC-17
Words: 795
Warnings:very mild mentions of gore, the sex is never official
Notes: Thank you KnottedString for the beta, and for being such a wonderful person too.
Inspired by this lovely prompt - thank you, prompter!
(as always, I'd be glad to dedicate the fic to you if you wanted)
And thank you mods!
Notes 2: I intentionally left the time this takes place unclear, but I enjoy imagining it is current day Sam and Dean <3
Summary:
It's not weird, it's just this thing they do
Sam moves his hand up Dean’s cock, and Dean holds back a groan. He is almost dripping excitement, eagerness, terror. His body is confused. That is why it works. It is just stimulations. Dean is a healthy young man and Sammy’s stupid hair is soft like a girl’s.
Dean stopped believing those some time back, but he still repeats them every time. Still goes back and forth cause it can’t be, cause he can’t like – it. Can’t like it like that.
“Eyeballs scum,” Sam says, and Dean lets out a breath as he reigns his cock back to mostly soft .
Dean doesn’t really care about the eyeballs.
But whoever’s hard is an eye scum perv.
Victorious, Dean holds tighter onto Sam’s wet cock. “Maggot burger,” he offers offhand. Sam’s lips are parted, eyes stuck to Dean’s neck. He's not listening. Dean allows himself just another pull, two, the way he knows Sam likes it. Shit. Doing this thing means Dean knows how Sammy likes his dick touched. The realization sends a sick shiver whirling through Dean’s stomach, making his cheeks flush high and thrilling down between his legs.
Sam swallows, eyes closed, hand still wrapped around Dean’s twitching cock. Sam’s voice is a little weird when he says - “you sick fuck.” Dean’s mouth goes dry, hand frozen on Sam’s cock. The tension sends tingles to Dean’s dick, and he can’t even tell if they’re making him harder or softer
“Dean humps maggot burgers in bed.”
The thrill of relief is almost as good as Sam’s hand, that moment. “Yeah, Sammy.” Dean concedes easily. Would have agreed to anything Sam said about him right that moment. “I do." He smiles, wide and loose, almost can’t control it.
Sam smiles back, looking dazed. Dean wants every bit of that dopy grin, wants to rub himself against it, burrow in. live in it. He moves his hand lower, presses that sweet spot behind Sam’s balls. Breathes “Ghost mucus,” in Sam’s ear. Sam’s breath hitches, and Dean’s entire body tunes to it, nerves alight. He clamps down on the feeling, Sam’s cock completely hard in Dean’s hand. It’s socking, makes him want to pull his hand away on instinct, avoid a burn, but he doesn’t seem to have that sort of drive for self-preservation. His brother’s dick in Dean’s hand, it’s disgusting. It is, it must be. Dean clamps down on these thoughts, along with Sam’s cock. It’s against the rules to help each other out, get each other soft, but Dean is older and his rules are higher. Can’t lose Sammy. Can’t let them crash.
Sam’s eyes widen at the pressure on his cock, almost pained. His hard on fades, thank fuck, but his eyes blaze dark, like he finds satisfaction in it. Like he finds satisfaction in denying himself pleasure. Man, they are fucked up, Dean thinks, almost impressed, but without real drive. His mind is already wandering to more interesting things. It is Sam’s turn.
“Rotting zombie corpses,” he breathes, thumbing the head of Dean’s cock. It jumps.
“Cheat,” Dean says. “You know how I feel about zombies.”
Sam ignores him. Moves lower, face tender, holds Dean’s balls as if they were something precious – and Dean wants to squirm away or jerk off hard and dry or maybe tear up. Sam says Dean’s name and his voice is too soft, other hand on Dean’s dick, measured and persistent just like Sam when he’s making his point. The way Sam likes it, Dean realizes, and how did they come to have the same taste in dick fondling. Dean lets out a torn sound, shivers of nausea and warmth thundering through his body, too- too- “Sam,” he warns, but his voice doesn’t sound like his own.
Sam looks up, defiant, eyes hot and sweet, like he’s found the final, crucial clue to nail a vengeful ghost, like it’s the one Dean said wont pan out. This has to stop, gotta put an end to it now. Never play this thing again.
Sam meets Dean’s gaze. Stumbles. His hand tenses, then slows, and he lowers his eyes, swallows, hand just resting on Dean’s cock. His eyes are shining with something. Not anything good.
“Sammy,” Dean raises a damp palm to Sam’s face, hesitates, fingertips barely brushing it.
Sam chews his lip for a second, harsh. Pushes something down. Dean’s bad. Dean’s fault.
Gives Dean a soft half smile, a little sad but still glowing, because he’s Sam.
Dean cups Sam’s cheek, wants to touch his bruised lip, wants to touch, ruin everything.
“Dad having sex in your car,” Sam says, hand squeezing Dean’s cock, sparkles reaching his eyes again.
“What the fuck?!” Dean beats Sam’s hands away and they are both laughing.
They are both ok.
~
Relationship: Dean/Sam
Rating: NC-17
Words: 795
Warnings:
Notes: Thank you KnottedString for the beta, and for being such a wonderful person too.
Inspired by this lovely prompt - thank you, prompter!
(as always, I'd be glad to dedicate the fic to you if you wanted)
And thank you mods!
Notes 2: I intentionally left the time this takes place unclear, but I enjoy imagining it is current day Sam and Dean <3
Summary:
It's not weird, it's just this thing they do
Sam moves his hand up Dean’s cock, and Dean holds back a groan. He is almost dripping excitement, eagerness, terror. His body is confused. That is why it works. It is just stimulations. Dean is a healthy young man and Sammy’s stupid hair is soft like a girl’s.
Dean stopped believing those some time back, but he still repeats them every time. Still goes back and forth cause it can’t be, cause he can’t like – it. Can’t like it like that.
“Eyeballs scum,” Sam says, and Dean lets out a breath as he reigns his cock back to mostly soft .
Dean doesn’t really care about the eyeballs.
But whoever’s hard is an eye scum perv.
Victorious, Dean holds tighter onto Sam’s wet cock. “Maggot burger,” he offers offhand. Sam’s lips are parted, eyes stuck to Dean’s neck. He's not listening. Dean allows himself just another pull, two, the way he knows Sam likes it. Shit. Doing this thing means Dean knows how Sammy likes his dick touched. The realization sends a sick shiver whirling through Dean’s stomach, making his cheeks flush high and thrilling down between his legs.
Sam swallows, eyes closed, hand still wrapped around Dean’s twitching cock. Sam’s voice is a little weird when he says - “you sick fuck.” Dean’s mouth goes dry, hand frozen on Sam’s cock. The tension sends tingles to Dean’s dick, and he can’t even tell if they’re making him harder or softer
“Dean humps maggot burgers in bed.”
The thrill of relief is almost as good as Sam’s hand, that moment. “Yeah, Sammy.” Dean concedes easily. Would have agreed to anything Sam said about him right that moment. “I do." He smiles, wide and loose, almost can’t control it.
Sam smiles back, looking dazed. Dean wants every bit of that dopy grin, wants to rub himself against it, burrow in. live in it. He moves his hand lower, presses that sweet spot behind Sam’s balls. Breathes “Ghost mucus,” in Sam’s ear. Sam’s breath hitches, and Dean’s entire body tunes to it, nerves alight. He clamps down on the feeling, Sam’s cock completely hard in Dean’s hand. It’s socking, makes him want to pull his hand away on instinct, avoid a burn, but he doesn’t seem to have that sort of drive for self-preservation. His brother’s dick in Dean’s hand, it’s disgusting. It is, it must be. Dean clamps down on these thoughts, along with Sam’s cock. It’s against the rules to help each other out, get each other soft, but Dean is older and his rules are higher. Can’t lose Sammy. Can’t let them crash.
Sam’s eyes widen at the pressure on his cock, almost pained. His hard on fades, thank fuck, but his eyes blaze dark, like he finds satisfaction in it. Like he finds satisfaction in denying himself pleasure. Man, they are fucked up, Dean thinks, almost impressed, but without real drive. His mind is already wandering to more interesting things. It is Sam’s turn.
“Rotting zombie corpses,” he breathes, thumbing the head of Dean’s cock. It jumps.
“Cheat,” Dean says. “You know how I feel about zombies.”
Sam ignores him. Moves lower, face tender, holds Dean’s balls as if they were something precious – and Dean wants to squirm away or jerk off hard and dry or maybe tear up. Sam says Dean’s name and his voice is too soft, other hand on Dean’s dick, measured and persistent just like Sam when he’s making his point. The way Sam likes it, Dean realizes, and how did they come to have the same taste in dick fondling. Dean lets out a torn sound, shivers of nausea and warmth thundering through his body, too- too- “Sam,” he warns, but his voice doesn’t sound like his own.
Sam looks up, defiant, eyes hot and sweet, like he’s found the final, crucial clue to nail a vengeful ghost, like it’s the one Dean said wont pan out. This has to stop, gotta put an end to it now. Never play this thing again.
Sam meets Dean’s gaze. Stumbles. His hand tenses, then slows, and he lowers his eyes, swallows, hand just resting on Dean’s cock. His eyes are shining with something. Not anything good.
“Sammy,” Dean raises a damp palm to Sam’s face, hesitates, fingertips barely brushing it.
Sam chews his lip for a second, harsh. Pushes something down. Dean’s bad. Dean’s fault.
Gives Dean a soft half smile, a little sad but still glowing, because he’s Sam.
Dean cups Sam’s cheek, wants to touch his bruised lip, wants to touch, ruin everything.
“Dad having sex in your car,” Sam says, hand squeezing Dean’s cock, sparkles reaching his eyes again.
“What the fuck?!” Dean beats Sam’s hands away and they are both laughing.
They are both ok.
~
Maybe I do ship it a bit....
Oct. 18th, 2015 09:50 amI'm gonna need Jared and Osric to kiss, please.
Preferably both dressed as Sam.
Maybe with Jensen-Dean, and the fake Impala.
But really, I'm gonna need them to kiss, pls.
Preferably both dressed as Sam.
Maybe with Jensen-Dean, and the fake Impala.
But really, I'm gonna need them to kiss, pls.
FIC: Biblically
Oct. 16th, 2015 04:06 pmTitle: Biblically
Character(s): Sam
Words: 125
Warnings:allusions to past torture/rape/psychological abuse, self harm
Spoilers: 11x02
Notes: This is apparently what happens when I try to write just one thing about an episode
Summary:Unclean. In every sense of the word.
People are essentially good. Sam tries to save them, perfect circle of holy fire and they are pure as babies, and they are clean. People are good in nature.
Sam can't afford that sort of move on himself. Sam is unclean. Could never be Sir Galahad. Could never be purified, only by trial, by fire. Nothing ever gets wiped. He hears the voices saying stop, you don’t have to burn your fucking face off. That is how Sam knows not to listen. Demons lie. Angels know the truth and they’ll tell you. You don’t have to burn your face off, bunkbuddy. You’re perfect just the way you are, Sammy, you belong with me. Every time they did it. And Sam knows it to be true.
Character(s): Sam
Words: 125
Warnings:
Spoilers: 11x02
Notes: This is apparently what happens when I try to write just one thing about an episode
Summary:
People are essentially good. Sam tries to save them, perfect circle of holy fire and they are pure as babies, and they are clean. People are good in nature.
Sam can't afford that sort of move on himself. Sam is unclean. Could never be Sir Galahad. Could never be purified, only by trial, by fire. Nothing ever gets wiped. He hears the voices saying stop, you don’t have to burn your fucking face off. That is how Sam knows not to listen. Demons lie. Angels know the truth and they’ll tell you. You don’t have to burn your face off, bunkbuddy. You’re perfect just the way you are, Sammy, you belong with me. Every time they did it. And Sam knows it to be true.
ANOTHER META: 11x02: the unknown
Oct. 16th, 2015 01:42 pmThe boys are again dealing with unknown powers - so much bigger than they are, powers that might be more horrible than anything they'd faced, might have grace, might have mercy, powers that don't necessarily fit into "good" and "evil" because they probably have their own agendas, their own way of understanding the world....
I love that Sam is hearing voices/seeing visions again - are they from outside of him? Memories? Are they for or against him? The voice calling him not to touch burning oil to his skin - was it compassionate, protecting him? Was it trying to get him to let himself die? And in the same episode, we get Billy (whom I LOVE), with her own complex agendas and perceptions, and knowledge, who knows from where. Threatening to make Sam suffer, also giving him the clue he needed to save himself and all those other people....
I love that religious stuff is back to the show, and that is not a thing I expected to love.... Sam talking with God - like praying as a kid, like Dean praying for Sam two seasons ago - only Dean was making a call and offering a deal, Sam is truly talking with an unknown force, more questions ........
And then the church sending help - and it actually being knowledgeable and with the power to be helpful - but not being very helpful - being very known - with its own agenda and knowledge
and all the angel figurines.... Ilove that something with so much symbolism on the show was so present - this religious or not symbol, that may be 'watching the Winchesters in their sleep' - possibly comforting, possibly terrifying - possibly broken now and not relevant, possibly something else, large, from before time....
ok, i squicked myself a bit
So, a small meta thing about 11x02
Oct. 16th, 2015 01:18 pmIn 11x02, (written by Andrew Dabb, same person who wrote the ep Charlie died in), Show said - oh, you don't like that we killed off a woman who's attracted to other women? Here, have another one! 3-2-1-dead!
I can't believe this is a coincidence. It reminds me of that Teen Wolf show runner throwing around his power to remind fans "who's boss".
ETA: Sorry, not Dabb -he wrote the next episode, my mistake!
Drabble for 11x02
Oct. 15th, 2015 06:03 pmTitle: This is not why
Characters: Dean, Sam
Spoilers: 11x02, earlier
Warnings: show level violence, quick and dirty writing
Dean can't take losing Sam again. But that is not why they're staying the hell away from that Regan MacNeil kid.
Sam hadn't felt right for some time, after the cage. Dean had kept explaining it away to himself. No one comes back from hell just right. Probably Sam had been kind enough to look the other way a few times for Dean, when Dean just got back topside. Finding out he'd been lying to himself, about a case, about Sam, that Sam came back wrong, that Sam really was still in hell, Dean's worst nightmare, and Dean was just letting him rot down there, lugging this monster around in his passenger seat across the country - that was a big one for Dean. So yeah, maybe he overstated the 'freak' just a bit .
But that Sam was never evil, not in the hunt-him-down-or-he'll-drink-the-blood-of-your-loved-ones sense. He killed innocents, but wasn't that always the ways, for them.
He chilled Dean to his core, the things he was willing to do, the things Sam was and this thing wasn't. Dean was never meant to be no one's moral compass.
Dean can't say how come Sammy was never a murderous fuck even without his soul. Maybe Sam's used to holding on in order to stay unevil. Maybe it's because Sam is Sam.
But one thing, Dean knows. No way is he allowing Sammy around that Darkness child.
Not because Sam could lose his soul again. Because if Sammy saw what it did to other people, he would never believe he wasn't the same.
Characters: Dean, Sam
Spoilers: 11x02, earlier
Warnings: show level violence, quick and dirty writing
Sam hadn't felt right for some time, after the cage. Dean had kept explaining it away to himself. No one comes back from hell just right. Probably Sam had been kind enough to look the other way a few times for Dean, when Dean just got back topside. Finding out he'd been lying to himself, about a case, about Sam, that Sam came back wrong, that Sam really was still in hell, Dean's worst nightmare, and Dean was just letting him rot down there, lugging this monster around in his passenger seat across the country - that was a big one for Dean. So yeah, maybe he overstated the 'freak' just a bit .
But that Sam was never evil, not in the hunt-him-down-or-he'll-drink-the-blood-of-your-loved-ones sense. He killed innocents, but wasn't that always the ways, for them.
He chilled Dean to his core, the things he was willing to do, the things Sam was and this thing wasn't. Dean was never meant to be no one's moral compass.
Dean can't say how come Sammy was never a murderous fuck even without his soul. Maybe Sam's used to holding on in order to stay unevil. Maybe it's because Sam is Sam.
But one thing, Dean knows. No way is he allowing Sammy around that Darkness child.
Not because Sam could lose his soul again. Because if Sammy saw what it did to other people, he would never believe he wasn't the same.
One thing about 11x02
Oct. 15th, 2015 03:07 pmJared, BB, we see you
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Call for Aid!
Oct. 11th, 2015 12:06 amOriginally posted by ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
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lady_simoriah at Call for Aid!As many of you have likely seen on various newspapers and news stations around the world, millions of people from Syria have been displaced by the fighting going on in the country. Some have fled to the surrounding Middle Eastern nations but as those neighbors have been maxed out many more have continued onward to Europe and elsewhere in search of a safe place to live. Many have traveled with very little if anything in the way of day to day needs and the various agencies are struggling to provide anything more than just the bare essentials for so many people. alycat made a post yesterday on her journal highlighting the difficulties the refugees are facing and asking for help going above and beyond to take care of them. So now I'm amplifying that call and passing it along to all of you by running this charity community.
As of right now there will be at least two options, either buy it now or traditional auctions with the possibility of more being added later if there's an interest. Both the buy it now and auction posts will open tonight, October 8, and run until Thursday, October 22, 11:59 pm Central Daylight Time. If there are any questions please feel free to reach out to me via PM or email at ladysimoriah@gmail.com.
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alycat made a post yesterday on her journal highlighting the difficulties the refugees are facing and asking for help going above and beyond to take care of them. So now I'm amplifying that call and passing it along to all of you by running this charity community.As of right now there will be at least two options, either buy it now or traditional auctions with the possibility of more being added later if there's an interest. Both the buy it now and auction posts will open tonight, October 8, and run until Thursday, October 22, 11:59 pm Central Daylight Time. If there are any questions please feel free to reach out to me via PM or email at ladysimoriah@gmail.com.
Please feel free to signal boost this relief effort wherever you can on LJ, Twitter, Facebook, etc. Let's spread the word people!
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Oct. 10th, 2015 01:26 amSPN is back and a soft smell of rain just blew in
I'm all right
...and having written this I realize it in a (western appropriate version of a) heiku
I'm all right
...and having written this I realize it in a (western appropriate version of a) heiku
Huge unknown epic force to deal with, brothers are small and in the, well, dark
The weirdness/grace/darkness/unfathomability of Dean saying "she saved me" - like men being pulled out of dangerous situations, telling mysterious stories they themselves don't understand, but are deeply moved by, even if it is never explained?
(though later it was explained)
I was spoiled re - the sniffing - but that could have maybe been very cool and creepy, a very interesting twist
fem!Crowley
"You were on a roll" lol
Boys in fields, Impala, show some skin
Cute adorable Christian orgy
Dean so not having the emotional capacity right then to deal with Sam questioning their ways .
That ridiculous '70's zoom on Sam's face when he was trying to get the zombies' attention!
The Cage exists! Also - I don't really feel like a repeat of season 5, but it would make for an interesting fic - with heaven and hell so different now, for those people to be let out....
Things I disliked:I seriously need Dean to take some responsibility for things he did, and to recognized their influence on Sam, like yesterday. Dean is usually over guilty and too responsible - and Sam, ffs, it is SAM. Please, please.
Killing the people who enjoy the sex why
More women being fridged, more women doing their thing having children dropped in their laps....
are all social services in that world also suddenly zombified?
Things I am petty about:
But Dean adores zombies!
"does she even know what a cheeseburger is" - Dean likes things other than burgers ffs - this is no longer characterization. kindly pick something more interesting.
Things I am immature about:
-Why would I tell you about The Darkness?
-because it's free
-The problem is not monetary, Sam
"You said the spell but I had the mark, so - lock and key?" - so.... Sam.... tops....?
Things I didn't understand
Logic of this episode. Why did they - you know, though - I don't care very much....
" Saving people means all of the people" - ????
Years ago I've been interested in the boys in 12 step programs - more invested in that now -
1) Sam looking at meeting schedules for the next town they will be in
2) Dean on the phone with his sponsor at night when Sam assumes he is out drinking or with a woman
3) Dean trying to be a cynical shit but getting over that REAL fast, and going into that heartbreaking obedient, desperate to be good mode of his.
4) Sam having trouble with the 'higher power' thing more than Dean - Dean might be mad at God - but he is happy to give himself to powers bigger than his, like the program - and it is a relief - Sam - might have some gray, frayed concept of God left from when he was a boy - but it is harder to rely on, more nostalgic and grown up, less innocent than Dean's. Sam - just knows already that any little good thing is unexpected and a blessing, and will not last......
5) each of them covertly working the steps - Sam is better at keeping it to himself than Dean, had to learn to be, all his life....
Dean maybe getting taken by some monster and Sam accidentally finding stuff Dean wrote to himself for his step work - heart breaking at the things Dean thinks about himself, and swelling with hope when he realized that no, this is not notes Dean took for their case.... and if - when - Sam does manage to save Dean from this monster, the stakes are higher, because Dean might actually be better, might actually be happier, and they might be better too, and Sam had lost hope of that happening long ago....
1) Sam looking at meeting schedules for the next town they will be in
2) Dean on the phone with his sponsor at night when Sam assumes he is out drinking or with a woman
3) Dean trying to be a cynical shit but getting over that REAL fast, and going into that heartbreaking obedient, desperate to be good mode of his.
4) Sam having trouble with the 'higher power' thing more than Dean - Dean might be mad at God - but he is happy to give himself to powers bigger than his, like the program - and it is a relief - Sam - might have some gray, frayed concept of God left from when he was a boy - but it is harder to rely on, more nostalgic and grown up, less innocent than Dean's. Sam - just knows already that any little good thing is unexpected and a blessing, and will not last......
5) each of them covertly working the steps - Sam is better at keeping it to himself than Dean, had to learn to be, all his life....
Dean maybe getting taken by some monster and Sam accidentally finding stuff Dean wrote to himself for his step work - heart breaking at the things Dean thinks about himself, and swelling with hope when he realized that no, this is not notes Dean took for their case.... and if - when - Sam does manage to save Dean from this monster, the stakes are higher, because Dean might actually be better, might actually be happier, and they might be better too, and Sam had lost hope of that happening long ago....
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Oct. 8th, 2015 09:32 am*casually clicks into Tumblr*
*realizes my mistake*
*raises hands*
Woah, woah, nothing bad needs to happen, we're all friends here, I'm just going to
*backs out carefully with no sharp movements*
*closes tab*
Fyw.
Nothing (new) horribly spoiled.
*realizes my mistake*
*raises hands*
Woah, woah, nothing bad needs to happen, we're all friends here, I'm just going to
*backs out carefully with no sharp movements*
*closes tab*
Fyw.
Nothing (new) horribly spoiled.
Hocky: frolunda hc vs erc ingolstadt
Oct. 6th, 2015 10:34 pmNoteworthy things:
a lot a lot of classic rock in the background?
occasionally, the live feed of hockey drama is a big empty court and someone cleaning it up. I find that a bit hilarious.
Rude reporter randomly asking someone why they lost this game. He was surprised too.
So far no boys making out, or maybe there were, haven't been paying close attention.
Fo your convenience, added a new tag to unfollow if you want.
a lot a lot of classic rock in the background?
occasionally, the live feed of hockey drama is a big empty court and someone cleaning it up. I find that a bit hilarious.
Rude reporter randomly asking someone why they lost this game. He was surprised too.
So far no boys making out, or maybe there were, haven't been paying close attention.
Fo your convenience, added a new tag to unfollow if you want.
England vs Australia
Oct. 3rd, 2015 10:59 pmI am trying to watch rugby. Because I suspect I would like sports if I got into it, I just never had anybody into it to show me the way. And people were talking about this game, so I decided to try it.
1) The most relat3able thing for me was some story about someone playing AC/DC's Thunderstruck during training (?) for some reason (?) - the AC/DC part I did get right....
2) Holy shit! Sports are violent! Those people are slamming into each other, jumping and grabbing each other in the air, lifting each other up to catch the ball! I am used to European football, they don't do that then, that I know !
3) I kinda feel like trying that sort of jump where you lunge yourself into someone's middle and just go for it
1) The most relat3able thing for me was some story about someone playing AC/DC's Thunderstruck during training (?) for some reason (?) - the AC/DC part I did get right....
2) Holy shit! Sports are violent! Those people are slamming into each other, jumping and grabbing each other in the air, lifting each other up to catch the ball! I am used to European football, they don't do that then, that I know !
AHBL Dean drabble
Sep. 26th, 2015 12:16 amTitle: AHBL Dean drabble
Warnings: all that that entails+some blasphemy maybe
( Had there been some force for good in the world other than Dad.... )
Warnings: all that that entails+some blasphemy maybe
( Had there been some force for good in the world other than Dad.... )
